Siddi! ur "may be's" are all wrong

Yeah! true enough,i had a diary
my first diary
and it exists no more
y???????
well...
i still have a diary
i always keep one
but...
sooner or later they all meet the same fate
y????????
well...
i cant do without one
i have got this vry bad habit of analysing things
why i did this or dat
why this is so...
if only it just shut up...
...my mind
it jst keep saying sth
sometimes i feel my life shall b better one
if only i stop thinking...
but y????
well...
i write cauz i feel like it
but...
1.i think it drains ur energies n takes up ur mind n time
vn there r more imp things in q, waiting 4 ur attention
2.if u keep it off u keep it from inspiring u further
3.they are not gone for forever ,i keep the stuff i find worth keeping n discard d rest
wats wrong with it? ofcourse nothing
4.vn i write its solely for me myslf
for my satisfaction , n to clear my own doubts
its more like a self talk
vn d things pile up inside, or vn sth reaches ur hrt or its too intense to be kept inside
dats d motive...to loosen up,to pour it out
i was always writing
n i shall keep doing dat vnevr i get enough time to
it don matter much if i share it with d rest
dats not wat drives me to it
dats not d motive behind
i share it with myslf dats all dat is imp
u see it helps clear confusions
i myslf didnt kno y i actually write
n y most of it is discarded